2010 so far

The New years been good to me so far. Things started on a positive note and doors were closed on certain chapters in my life with a little bit of nostalgia, nevertheless grounded by fervent knowledge to move on. 

 

Work took me to Thailand for a week on the 2nd Jan and it was by far one of the best first weeks I’ve had in years. Finally got to go Jet Skiing, though my fear of heights kept me from being daredevil and go para-sailing. Pattaya is one colourful city and the Transvestites are intriguing. Heck! some of them were prettier and more feminine than I was! 2 days in Pattaya, sunburnt & relaxed we then headed to Bangkok. I think it’s us girls who looked forward to the two days in Bangkok more. For obvious reasons! The guys looked like they were being dragged to hell! Suffice to say that the shopping in BKK once again did not let us down.

 

Now back at work things are picking up. A change in management has made work enjoyable and the passion and motivation I once thought had left me for good is now back with a vengeance. My younger sis will be tying the knot in September and the entire house is filled with wedding paraphernalia! I had no clue that there were close to half a dozen bridal magazines published locally and it seems as if my sister has bought an entire bookstore of them! Mum is in full swing getting things done and my father walks around looking permanently harassed! Though he did impress us all with his taste in floral arrangements when it came to deciding at the florists. Guess he thought  “If you can’t beat em , Join em!”

 

Cheerio.

Crossroads

Sometimes I wish I’d never met you

Never had those long conversations that kept us wake till dawn

Never known what it was like to be the first you spoke to in the morning

And the last to bid good night

That familiarity of looking at my wrist always uncannily on time

When a weary ‘I just got back’ were words I longed to see

Longed to hear.

They tested my patience, my very strength not to be consumed by your absence

And absence was the one constant.

I wish I had the guts to delete your childhood picture

The one you swore me to secrecy with

I wish you were not my benchmark

The intensity with which I know I can love

I wish I could see how wrong you would be for me

When you treat her that way, I imagine it would be different if it were us

A foolish notion. But I’m entitled to dream.

I enjoyed seeing you in pain.

I enjoyed the confusion and the quizzical glances

When he put his arm around me and kissed my head

I saw you watching and I stared right back

It echoed everything I felt for you once

It cut like a knife when you hugged her right in front of me

Blocking the door so I had no choice but to watch

We knew

We walked away

We never looked back

But I wrote

And herewith shall it rest.

For,

Love beckons me,

And this time I will acknowledge.