Sometimes I wish I’d never met you
Never had those long conversations that kept us wake till dawn
Never known what it was like to be the first you spoke to in the morning
And the last to bid good night
That familiarity of looking at my wrist always uncannily on time
When a weary ‘I just got back’ were words I longed to see
Longed to hear.
They tested my patience, my very strength not to be consumed by your absence
And absence was the one constant.
I wish I had the guts to delete your childhood picture
The one you swore me to secrecy with
I wish you were not my benchmark
The intensity with which I know I can love
I wish I could see how wrong you would be for me
When you treat her that way, I imagine it would be different if it were us
A foolish notion. But I’m entitled to dream.
I enjoyed seeing you in pain.
I enjoyed the confusion and the quizzical glances
When he put his arm around me and kissed my head
I saw you watching and I stared right back
It echoed everything I felt for you once
It cut like a knife when you hugged her right in front of me
Blocking the door so I had no choice but to watch
We knew
We walked away
We never looked back
But I wrote
And herewith shall it rest.
For,
Love beckons me,
And this time I will acknowledge.
🙂
Lovely.
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heart-wrenchingly beautiful
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wow o_o i can relate. kudos for letting it go. it’s what hurts the most.
“High up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
If you never try then you ‘ll never know
Just what you’re worth.” – Coldplay.
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Lovely
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wow…. amazing!
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i agree.. this somehow came across as very real and to the point..
nice 🙂
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😥 :’) 🙂
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beautiful.
his loss.fuckwit.
love you 🙂
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Letting it go?
Beautiful though.
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@Sabby,Sweet Idiot, Lady Divine & Seesaw – Thank u 🙂
@Black – Truer words were never said. It’s difficult to let go, especially when slipping back comes so easily.
@Gehan – I guess it’s as real as real could be. Thanks 🙂
@Dili – Hugs 🙂
@ Delilah – Thank u love. For the comment and the sticking by me bit 🙂 Love u too.
@ Lost – Yeah it’s time to let go. Thank u 🙂
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true. letting go also helps with putting things in perspective though. its all good in time.
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Yeah I know. Took time to realise it though.
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that was… wow! 😐
beautifully written! 🙂
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Thanks Chav. Sorry had missed u out earlier 🙂
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This sums up so much for me – I can totally relate! What will be will be. Beautifully written! 🙂
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Yes, look forward, not back.
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@scrumpy – Thank u 🙂 hope things ease up with time.
@ JP – Yes siree 🙂
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Ah, well.
These things happen.
Move on.
Good luck.
“But I wrote
And herewith shall it rest”
Very nicely put.
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naice. and hell yeah ive there.
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*been
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@Kapila – Yes they always will, and thank you. 🙂
@Purple – Guess we all have and will at some point.
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very nice… and hey u didnt wish me for my bday… im upset!
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Belated Bday wishes R!!!!! Hope it was a fab one! 🙂
and thank you.
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